the better me

I will be starting a new blog in the next few days, all from a somewhat seemingly passing thought I had this morning that, well, is not passing as quickly as these thoughts normally do. Conversations this past weekend have opened my eyes quite a bit. First of all, boredom pisses the hell outta me. I realized this when noting how agitated I got when a friend complained about boredom. My thoughts are "if you are bored, FIND SOMETHING TO DO!" This could be, but not limited to, developing a worldview, studying the stars, reading a bestseller book, learning how to play piano, deep clean your house, continued.... Secondly, after a conversation with a good friend, I have finally come to peace about the ending of a relationship with Christopher. Realizing mistakes, closing the emotional "black-hole" that once consumed me, and moving on to a better me is all it will take. You learn from mistakes in order to make a better decision the next time. Interestingly enough, he is NOT what I want or need anymore, and this just took a short month to realize, praise the Lord!
These events both moved me into a process of motivation. What I mean is this- I often complain about not having enough motivation to do the things I want to do, to be the person I want to be. Well, I now understand that gaining the momentum is a process. So, here goes: Begin Process.
Easy enough, right? Well, First and foremost, I am creating a new blog (when I get the time in the next few days) that will share this process with friends, family, and serve as a pick-me-up when I need to look back on where I've come. Next step, CREATE GOALS. I failed, for the longest time, to realize how important this step is. I adore the idea of a better me, but what about the better me is different than the me that is now? I need a finish, an end to run to. More importantly, I need to know what is important to me, and what I'd like to accomplish.
Here is the beginning of my list that will be soon posted on the new site. It'll take some developing and prioritizing, but here's the blueprint.

The Better B
1. Focus on school. Know what classes are important to you, but put in the equal effort for those that are not. Make the grades and gain the rewards.
2. Develop the physical body. Move to more running (at least 3 times weekly) and longer distances (I can only run about 1 mile right now) to increase stamina and decrease Asama. Be able to fit into Hannah's bridesmaid dress by the wedding (2 dress sizes by May 2nd) and lose 20 pounds by the summer.
3. Start back on your passion of reading. Find time. I'll be using a couple of lists of "100 best books to read" to compile by own favorite reading list. This will be a special section on the new site.
4. Write everyday. The end. (Can be in private journal, new blog, letters, etc.)
5. Spend more time in the Word. More specifically, set apart a scheduled time to spend in the Word. Maybe it's mornings, maybe it's evenings (I haven't done much thinking on it).
6. Studying more in depth your passion for personality matrices, including Myers-Briggs and the Enneagram. Focus this attention to more in depth understanding and memorization.

I can't think of anymore at the moment, and my cold-infected head feels like it's swelling. Nonetheless, let the momentum begin! I will post the new website link real soon.
Peace and love,
-b